[m4f] #North Carolina, 33, 6 ft, well built, never had one, 0/3

[m4f] NC 828, 33, 6 foot, strong build, never had one 0/3 on partners

Hey, so this is coming to a head as I have decided to put myself back out there again. It’s been 3 years since my 3rd partner and I spent the 3 years processing the trauma of the loss. I was SA’d by a man at 18, my first attempt at sex. Didn’t lose my virginity til 27 and am adamant no one does anything they don’t like in the bedroom. Due to this, I never got one.

At 33, successful, looking for my life partner, I’m super worried I’ll go 0/4 and never experience it. It’s gotten so distressing that I almost gave up and got one from a dude. I wish I was gay as dudes beg me for it, lol. I am not unfortunately.

I’m not into pain, no need for deep throat or anything uncomfortable. Literally, all I want is to be able to look down and see someone’s (woman’s) mouth on it because they want to. I love giving oral myself. But I’m concerned I will never be satisfied if I never experience it outside of SA. And I would like to know its importance to me in finding my next partner. I’ve always dreamed of CIM but only want what you enjoy. If you’re down, my next biggest fantasy is 69, as I worry I’ll feel guilty just receiving. I don’t even need to finish, if I can look down and see eager eyes for a minute I’m sure I’ll be happy.

If willing, I’d like to try standing while you’re on your knees for a minute and sitting for a minute. (My fantasies) I am willing to buy lengerie or toys for the experience but refuse to pay money for a sex act. If this sounds like something you would like to bless me with, it would make me much less subconscious. Dudes always say it looks perfect (from pics) but it’s hard when, despite me eating out my partners daily, I never got one. Please pm for more details, sorry for my Reddit history, it’s really effecting my life right now. Please enjoy this act or I’ll feel bad. Thanks!