I've been looking into/getting to grips with my ROCD in my romantic relationships recently. I was listening to the a podcast and the man being interviewed made some passing comment to ROCD in other relationships. Specificcaly I think he mentioned parents worrying about weather or not they loved there kids enough. I hope to be a mother one day but one of my big fears is that I won't love my child "fully." I had never thought of this as ROCD before.

That set me to thinking, for as long as I could remember until about 23, I was constantly worried I didn't love my parents enough. As a child (definitely under 10) I would obsess over what would happen if they died and I wasn't sad enough. I used to try to figure out who's funeral I'd be sadder at. Or if I had to resue one who I'd rescue and why. Then I'd try figure out what my reasoning told me about my love for each one.

I'm not sure what changed or how I overcame it, but it's not something I really think about at all now. I certainly never told anyone or sought help. It was something I was very ashamed of. Is this something other ROCD suffers do? Or is it just something odd and morbid that a lot of kids do but just don't talk about?