Please someone talk to me…Dexamphetamine

I am so petrified right now. I’ve been abusing my dex for a year and I can’t keep doing this.

Right now I am averaging 13 x 5mg a day like I stay up falling asleep late etc. i am supposed to be on 8 x 5. I am going through a massive panic attack and now don’t even know if its come down or a heart attack.

I don’t know what to do. My heart is pounding my nose is stuffy i am starting to feel sweaty. Please help.

I don’t know how you all did it. The worst part of all this is I am an alcoholic. I have not touch booze in 5 years this year. It felt good to finally function after my adhd diagnosis, focus, calm and yelling at the kids. My husband will ditch me after this. All I wanted was to be able to work and maintain focus. How i fell into this trap I cannot forgive myself. How can I so this again. My tablets are supposed to last me exactly 37.5 days. 300 tablets. I am on day 12. I am down to 142.

I got sober in AA it took 10 years of trying to get sober. I finally did it with some incredible members. It felt so good to hear hope and know there is recovery. Hopefully. My mine is racing, I don’t even know if my kidneys or liver are functioning. I am retaining water I can see it.

Please help me, help me to see that there is hope. Is it possible to get through with this many. Please give me some hope.