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Firstly, why am I single?

Back in twenty-nineteen, I had a long-term (five year) relationship come to a mutual end. There's a lot to his, but ultimately we were two very busy individuals, we both worked and we both studied at different Universities for a good portion of our relationship. On top of that, we were also 50km away from one another, we both grew and changed as individuals, but we didn't have enough time together for the relationship to grow and adapt with us. We ended up with different wants, different needs, and different expectations.

Also, this was a relationship I kind of pressured myself getting into at the time, and it was formed very early on in my journey to becoming a better person. So I was still a heavily selfish and sheltered person when we were laying down the foundations for the relationship, I had a bit of impostor syndrome which I was coming to terms with and overcoming.

But that was 3 years ago now!?

Yes, and I gave myself a significant period of time before considering dating again, in late twenty-twenty I was heavily manipulated and emotionally abused by a three year friend. Then, in late twenty twenty-one, I made a new friend, we clicked, we vibed, we complemented one another's humor, wit, and intelligence, we got along with one another's families, it was great. We dated for four months (broke up at the start of January this year) after knowing one another for eight months, it was a great time, and I have huge respect for her as an individual. She really raised my expectations of a relationship and of a partner. But, the relationship didn't seem to develop into anything beyond a really good friendship, and whatever it was becoming, wasn't what either of us wanted or needed either. We no longer talk; it's awkward, and that's fine.

So who am I?

I grew up learning how to read because of Pokémon Blue, I'd watch Pokémon, Digimon, Dragon Ball Z, Yugioh, Beyblades, and even Zoids: Chaotic Century (the only zoids I ever watched), maybe some Monster Ranger. Once I started actually getting into anime, I'd watch things like Bleach, Chrno Crusade, Samurai Champloo, Ragnarok: The Animation, .hack//sign, ghibli movies (duh), and a whole lot more.

Due to how my high school went, combined with an unfortunate domestic dynamic, I got a bit depressed and became heavily addicted to some MMO's that some of my friends got me into. I embraced the online social world and it completely replaced the life I had. I dived into some pretty toxic and drama filled environments, egotistical social ladders, people manipulating one another until they couldn't get anything more out of someone, and jumping to the next person. I learned to adapt in this environment by becoming one of them - it wasn't good. I became selfish, manipulative, and I had a very negative perspective of friendship.

I had a long-distance relationship for a few years while in that environment, we became so dependent on one another, I ended up visiting them, whether or not things were to work out, I felt like it was the only way either of us would be able to move on from one another. It didn't work out, and we managed to move on. At this point, I quit the main games we had been playing for years and moved onto other games.

Eventually I shifted jobs and longer term, I eventually decided to go to University, even though I was a high school dropout. I now have a post-graduate degree, studied in Sweden and got to travel Europe, and I have a very prosperous career ahead of me that I genuinely enjoy doing. I also have longer term plans for different things I think I'd like to get myself into!

Nowadays I'm a lot more open and honest than I used to be, in the past, just thinking about having certain conversations and talking about certain sensitive topics would break me into tears. This doesn't happen any more, I'm sure there's potentially some things that might tickle that spot, but I also imagine I'd handle them a lot better than I used to too. I like creating an environment where anything and everything can be discussed, no matter how personal, no matter how controversial, no matter how conflicting, no matter what it is - there's no need to get angry or mad - just try to be patient, understanding and remain chill.

No matter what your thoughts are emotions might be, no matter how much society makes you think they are going to be perceived by others as "stupid", "silly", or "not good enough" - none of that matters. If something matters enough to you to influence your thoughts and emotions, than it matters enough to deserve attention. I don't believe in too much information either.

When I was younger growing up online, I was for some time a part of a variety of roleplaying communities (where a lot of people engaged in written roleplay for their perverse satisfaction), so from that I've just learned not to judge people for anything that would be considered "weird", "unusual", or "out there".

I now live by myself with my cat, this means I keep my house clean throughout the week and weekends, I have chores, I have adult responsibilities (ugh, but I do not feel like I'm up to it).

Love Language

I'm not a particularly sexual individual, if you have a regular or high sex drive, I'm not likely the guy for you. My love language is touch: intimate cuddles, fondling, groping, caressing, holding hands/arms, that kind of thing. I'm also the kind of guy who likes to pamper in a relationship back scratches and massages of all kinds (back, neck, shoulders, foot rubs, arms, legs) that kind of thing, and I don't necessarily want or need those things to turn into something sexual; that's not who I am. For me, "Netflix and chill" isn't a metaphor, it's literal, let's cuddle up and watch.

Games

Originally played Flyff, alongside some zomg (gaiaonline, once it dropped), plus s4league in the early days, perfect world, aion, dragons nest, tera, guild wars 2 for a short time,

Nowadays I play mostly single-player games (Limbo, Ori and the Blind Forest, Hollow Knight, and currently Horizon: Zero Dawn), and I play some Brawlhalla with a good friend of mine in California, hoping to visit him in the next couple of years, I sent him a heap of Aussie snacks earlier this year as he was a solid bro during some depressive phases. I'm in a friend group of his and they watch stuff and play some games over the weekends!

Anime

Recently I watched Demon Slayer with one friend, and we started watching Jujutsu Kaisen. I was watching Attack on Titan, but I never got around to watching the second part to the final season yet. I watched Made in Abyss back when it aired, never realized a movie sequel came out. Been considering a re-watch, and then the movie, since the second season is airing at the moment.

Shows / Movies

Grew up on Stargate SG-1. Dark is my favorite Netflix series. The Witcher (I've read some of the books too, and I've played the first game). Brooklyn Nine-Nine. IT Crowd. Black Books. House. The Office. Mighty Boosh. Doctor Who (not up to date).

I've been tempted to give the original Teen Titans cartoon a re-watch.

Huge How to train your Dragon fan, love Anastasia, Treasure Planet, Road to El Dorado, The Emperor's New Groove, Lilo & Stitch, Kubo and the Two Strings, Marvel better than DC (but I'm a bit behind). Love me some Horror Films.

What am I looking for?

Someone I can message and talk to throughout the day, send pictures to, and someone who will do the same. I like to chat for a while by text before I'm comfortable considering calls. Calls are easier for me if it's for the sake of playing a game or watching something, as it gives the call a bit more of a centered focus purpose. I want to find someone whom I click and vibe with quickly, someone likeminded, and over a longer period of time, see if that can become something much more.

I'd love to find someone to play through the Halo campaign with on steam, I've never played them, and I'm terrible at FPS, so if you're the same, that'd be fun to give a shot.

Feel free to ask me anything, anything at all, and also let me know if there is anything in particular that sticks out, resonates with you, or makes you reach out!