I'm turning 44 this week, so the number in the title in subsequent posts will change soon.

This is my first post here. There is a lot on my mind that I can't talk to anyone else about. I'm looking to talk to some nonjudgmental, understanding women. I am very short (5'2"), average looking, average weight. Dating sites have been a total bust. I am reserved and lean somewhat toward the introverted end of the spectrum, but I can definitely be social when I am comfortable with someone. I am a sensitive and caring person but a lot has gone wrong in my life due to a combination of bad decisions and horrible luck.

These are the top things on my mind right now:

1. I have not had sex in an embarrassingly long time and am very experienced overall. Subconsciously, I always thought "there's always tomorrow, next week, or next year". But in the last several days, something hit me unlike any emotion I have ever had in my life. I am now wondering whether it is really too late for me to ever become experienced and enjoy this the way many other people do. People are expected to know what they're doing, without exception for casual sex and almost certainly even with a FWB or a relationship. That's all I'll say for now, I'll expand on it more when we talk.

2. COVID. I have stayed in much of the time (although I walk daily for exercise) and not done many of the things I did pre-pandemic, such as traveling and going to museums and other sites. I am vaccinated and boosted and I wear a KN95 or N95 mask whenever I go out in public. I am concerned about long COVID and the potentially permanent effects it can have, although I realize life is passing me by while everyone else is out living life, socializing, dating, and hooking up. I want to be able to do things again but I need to find some way of balancing this with the legitimate concern of long COVID. And COVID cases have been persistently high year-round.

Any women who can talk about this, please PM me. Age is unimportant as long as you can carry on a conversation. I am trying to get out of a major rut and would prefer talking and getting to know each other slowly, although I am open to meeting up if and when the time is right.