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(Please bear with me this may be lengthy...)

I have a reoccurring dream. In this dream I am in a place of cold and darkness, with a harsh landscape of scattered jagged edges and powdered snow that glistens under faint star light for as far as I can see. At its wide horizon is a deep black, endless void, speckled with tiny distant stars. They don't seem to ever twinkle or blink; they remain still, as though frozen in time. I am alone there, there's no sound, and aside from the occasional gust of piercing wind, there is no movement. The dream is haunted by a sharp chill that runs so deep that I should feel extreme discomfort and numbness. But instead, I just feel a soothing sense of ease and warmth, and a weightlessness that makes any burden I've ever had to bear, or any worry that's ever plagued my mind, just fade away into nonexistence. As cruel as it looks to be, I find its ambiance to be charming, and beautiful. It's so familiar, and raw and real, and I am truly captivated by it. Although it doesn't happen often, I am always pleased to return to this vacant unworldly dream, even if it's just for a fleeting moment. Because I know it, as though it exists within the oldest part of my being. 

I don't like being cold. But I love the feeling that the winter wind breathes into my very core, in the same way a gentle whisper brings shivers and goosebumps over me. Because it just takes me back there, to my cold distant dream. Even if the sun isn't shining, even if the snow isn't glittering like diamonds under the light of day. It doesn't have to be nice. The world can be in chaos. It can be harsh and bitter, and uncomfortable. But when I'm outside immersed in that cold, suddenly it's like I'm standing in a snow globe, contained, safe, and at peace. It is just me. Amongst an angry, yet gentle, flurry of quiet, chaotic snow dust that stings my cheeks and eyelids with its tiny frosted kisses. And I am untouched by the world, and removed from it for that moment. 

Being an HSP, I live most of my experiences in this way. And to answer the question of what I am here to look for, would be to say that I would like to find the person for me with whom I can share a similar experience with, but of life and love.

I used to believe that only such a thing could exist within fairytales, or dreams, or the unlimited possibilities of a beautiful mind. However, since I know the winter touch can affect me in the same way as my oldest most beloved dream, I dare to hope. And while I don't expect miracles, and I approach this without expectations, this is me, sending off a little note into the vast universe to see If it makes its way somewhere special.

So now, where would that happen to be? 

If he is out there, somewhere, then I'd like to think that special place would be in the hands of that one person with who I can stand with through cold and chaos. The one who I do not know yet, but dream to. The one who will be my safe place, and I will be his. Even if the world is hectic and falling apart around us. It wouldn't much matter because everything would just melt away when our eyes met. Just us, existing on our own unique wavelength, seeing and loving each other for all that we are, with openness, acceptance, and respect. Being there for each other when we are vulnerable. Nurturing and supporting whenever needed, I would be in his corner and he would be in mine. He wouldn't mind the touch of cold hands, and I would do my best to protect him from my frostbite.  If it's possible to know another as we know ourselves, if it's possible to obtain that understanding of each other on a level that greatly surpasses anything that we've ever known, we would dare to Try it. It wouldn't matter what he looked like, or what his past history looks like. I couldn't even begin to describe who he is, Because I haven't met him yet. But there has to be that Natural connection, and enough similar values upon which can be built something we both desire and find comfort in. 

If my note makes it to him.

I understand these things don't happen overnight and I'm willing to put the time in to find this person, either through voice chats or sleep calls, and eventually meeting up to sharing keepsake moments in person. (Snow angels? Finding beauty on the frozen trails? Or just a hot decaf latte while strolling through the snowy streets?)

Now, a bit about me:

Single mom, petite, 5'1½" short, 108lbs, with dark brown shoulder length hair, and greyish green-blue eyes. In essence: I am a certified PSW, amateur photographer, introvert, hopeless romantic, daydreaming nature-lover with an interest in ahimsa and anti-speciesism. Family is important to me, I love spending time with mine whenever I can, and I take care of those I love. You will find me to be a good listener, patient, and thoughtful. As well as very empathetic. This shows in much of what I do... I like to keep an open mind, and I'm continually reading books to improve upon myself and to fine-tune my perspective on things. I love trying to capture the beauty in anything that I see... from enchanted frost patterns crawling across a glass window to cloud formations that look like running horses. I enjoy sharing it with others.

My likes:

• I love to dance, run, and sing
• Photography, photo art, taking food pictures
• The sunshine and feeling its warmth on my skin
• The sunrise and hearing the first songs of the birds in the morning
• The peace of being alone, I enjoy my "me" time, but also would love our "us" time
• Exploring trails and waterfalls and looking forward to more of it
• How freshly fallen snow sparkles like diamonds under the sun
• The smell of the cold crisp winter air and the feeling of winter changing to spring
• I love the excitement of watching a movie in the theatre
• I love the smell of past memories and how their scent randomly finds the way to me
• Whenever I meet departed friends in my dreams, lost but not ever forgotten ♡
• Aimless long-distance walks/hikes, cycling
• Finding a cozy spot to plant my feet in the grass to soak in the beauty of the world around me
• Music: I have a very wide range of preferences here, ranging from epic instrumental music to movie soundtracks, hip-hop, rock, or even cello metal. Anything empowering that I can dance to, really. I'm drawn to music that just gives my heart wings.
• TV/movies: I gravitate more towards post-apocalyptic, zombie, action, sci-fi, fantasy, thought-provoking, for example: The crow (Brandon Lee), The fountain, Resident evil, book of Eli, Marvel movies, Predators, Lord of the rings, rings of power, stranger Things, any space movie ever.
• I enjoy stretching my creativity in a number of different ways including baking elaborate cakes, making simple food look pretty, sewing mini quilts or Halloween costumes, and creating photo art.
• Living cruelty-free 

There are a few pictures of what I do on my profile.

If any of this resonates with you, and you feel a connection with what I've written here, feel free to send a little note my way telling me your favourite colour (Mine is iridescent), and we may see if there's potential between us. I look forward to hearing from you. If not, thank you for reading My novella, and I hope you find what you're looking for. Best wishes.

p.s. Messages are preferred to chats; my chats don't work well.