I’ll admit, I’m adapting an old post & throwing in some random stuff from the notepad this lives in—like ghosts (of Christmas past?).

I fear I’ve struggled so far down this wrong and broken turn that I have no idea what I’d say to you anymore, at all. For sure, and first of all, it’ll be the wrong thing. I’ve been kinda silo’d off and I’m worried I’m rusty when it comes to talking to new people.

I post this today not just because I’m lonely but because I’ve got that funny feeling…can you feel it?

Hi, Merry Christmas, I'm AJ. My life is a wreck at the moment. It's ridiculous that I should be here trying to meet anyone when things are in such disarray...except my gut tells me that YOU might see this. I also believe that you don’t get to meet people at “the right time”—not for you & not for them.

I’m looking for connection—like we’ve always known each other. I want us to feel close. I want us to feel that excitement when there’s a new message.

I'm funny, talented, have too much time on my hands and I care about kindness almost more than anything else in the world.

I always say I don’t know why I’m here—but it’s not true—I’m looking for you. If (you think) I mean YOU, please let me know, I’d like to chat!

I am single, my kid is grown, I’ve got health problems that sap a lot of my time and energy right now—but I’m still trying. I AM taking care of myself, even if I’m not any damned good at it. I mean, somebody’s gotta do it, right?

You could think of me as an old punk rock kid. I’m also a musician and I’ll show you pretty music, if you let me.

My sense of humor can be larger than I am and I crack jokes constantly—and they’re not all dad-jokes, even though I do have a license. They are not all very funny but that doesn’t bother me. They can’t ALL be winners!

If you think, somehow, I’m talking to you, please send me a chat message. Tell me your first name, or whatever you’d like me to call you--tell me how old you are and tell me something that gives you butterflies (the good kind).

PLEASE NOTE: Do NOT message me and then ask for money. I don’t have any. Not what this is about. If you make it about that, our talk will be short indeed.

AJ

P.S.—Did you ever miss someone you hadn’t met yet?

Recent Selfies: https://imgur.com/a/t5HwS4Y