I just wanted to vent and maybe see if there is anyone who feels similar. I’m single and live alone. And I love it. I love that I can decorate, organize, clean, etc. how I want without having to compromise. I can do what I want, when I want without having to consider someone else. And the thought of having to compromise for someone else doesn’t sound fun.

On the other hand, I do miss being with someone; having a special someone to tell everything to, get excited with, etc. I’ve only ever been in one relationship which consisted of my ex lying, cheating, and manipulating me. So part of me is afraid to even try. I’m happy as I am so why bother and potentially put myself into another situation/relationship to get hurt. But then I know there are actual good men, that wouldn’t do those horrible things, that would treat me well as I deserve to be, and truly love me.

Sometimes I feel hopeful, but most of the time I just assume it will never happen. I don’t know how I am supposed to ever trust someone again. But also, I like not having to compromise, which doesn’t work in a relationship. Though I suppose maybe if I met the right person, compromise wouldn’t seem so bad.

I don’t know. Just my thoughts at the moment.