I'm not kidding. I like conspiracy theories and eschatology and prefer to think that the end is near.

Nothing interesting about me. In fact, that's why I don't have many friends. I'm not good at anything. I don't play video games. I'm not a techie and I suck with computers. I don't have cool gadgets, clothes, movies, or music. I'm too dumb to catch up with conversations or know the latest fashions. I can't even relate to people here who are mostly left-leaning, atheist, and very westernized/americanized. And you'll have to believe me when I say I'm a girl because I look and sound like a guy.

I don't have a job. My last one was a very difficult experience and ended in a traumatic way so I'm terrified of looking for a job and going back to work. I have mental issues and my years on different medications and therapies didn't help but effectively ruined my physical health. Now I'm obese and finding it very hard to exercise or do anything physical. I have no will to live, I honestly don't know why I'm not dead already.

My good side? I have no student debt, or debt of any kind. I barely have any money but I don't borrow. Emotional neediness aside, I'm low maintenance. I won't need anything from you physically, not even a picture. Only emotional and moral support so I don't fall into hopelessness and bad behaviors.

If you can't be my reason for living, that's fine. It's not fair to ask someone to be my everything, and sometimes a moment of encouragement or appreciation is enough. Give me a reason to get through the night or day, or hour, or minute. Anything to stop me from doing something I might regret later.