I spent my teenage years crushing for the same guy in school, but I never told him how I felt. I was always in a sweet pink bubble dreaming about love and relationship. I watched lot of Asian rom coms where it’d take ten episodes for the two people to finally touch each other’s hands, and of course lots of Disney movies.

Without having real dating experiences, I met an American boy on the internet at the age of 21. We chatted for 276 days and I came to the States to meet him. I felt like Ariel from Little Mermaid that I was coming to his part of world where everything was foreign and different from mine.

After years of trials and marriage, the stress and struggles from the reality suffocated our love. He fell out of it and wanted to date other people. He broke up with me for another person. I was heartbroken but looking back I am happy for him and his success in life.

Here I am, 30 years old, still inexperienced with dating but still having the same passions and hopes for love. I am experiencing a difficult time to play these games. I can’t tell when a man is truly sincere and actually mean the words he says. I feel like Anna from Frozen and I deal with so many Hans. They say they are also looking for long term relationships, they are forward and they kiss me. I get twitterpated, thinking this might be it, and they start to pull away and say they are “busy” and accuse me of moving too fast. But what about those kisses and touches from the other nights? They act like they are into me but they don’t.

Dating isn’t very enjoyable to me.. I very much prefer being in a relationship. But it’s necessary isn’t it? I can’t just wish for a fairy godmother to find me a Beast, but I also can’t skip 500 Gastons to get to him.

What’s your dating experience like? Would you like to share with me?