The burnout is real.

I have experienced a whole lot of this world. I have traveled extensively, worked jobs in a huge amount of different fields and have been pretty successful in making great friends in my adult life despite being very introverted. So why am I on here?

The past 4 years I have become increasingly isolated, even before the virus (never really going out and haven't even tried to date). It turns out I suffer from dysthymia or Chronic persistent depression (Basically, severely blunted emotions and the inability to focus on the things I should). While I am getting help for this, progress is slow going. I have become a recluse and after so long even good friends start to give up on asking you to hangout. I stopped caring about pretty much everything and just go through daily motions because I have to. I really want to change that and I feel this might be a good first step.

When it comes to meeting women I am beyond terrible. Its simply impossible for me to approach a woman I find attractive since I have an extremely negative perception of myself and truly believe women do not want to be bothered by some random guy. Pretty much every women I have ever dated I have met online first or through a friend. I've been told I am not ugly but I can not shake my shitty perception of myself.

So about me (not going to go into physical appearance a lot since Im including pictures): I am 5'9 or 10, thin 155-165lbs. A great listener. I've been told I also give great advice. I love discussing all kinds of topics with people (even if we disagree). I really enjoy comics, video games, movies and literature. Im a fan of basically all genres of music but really like obscure Eastern European sounds :P Huge animal lover. Honest to a fault. Would move heaven and earth to be with someone I love (Actually moved out of country twice for that :P). Open minded and non judgmental. Have never and would never cheat on a partner. Please ask if your curious about anything else!

For a partner I do have a bit of a criteria. Please do not think I am being elitist or something, I just know that to have a successful relationship somethings really have to be there.

Physically: I am attracted to petite women. Since I am slender and not exactly the tallest, this has always been my preference. No real preference on ethnicity, hair color or eye color (though I definitely notice lighter eyes/hair immediately and do have a soft spot for Eastern European women due to my time in that area of the world). I value honesty and loyalty so very much. I lost my ex-fiance due to cheating and that betrayal really crushed me. Age...this is tough for me to judge, but I think 18-21 is probably waaaaay to young. I don't want to exclude it but in my experience those can still be really formative years (I dated a 20 year old when I was 29 and it did NOT end well). I do not want to limit any contact but I feel 25 may be better for everyone.

Personality: Similar to mine in some ways. A women who prefers doing things together rather then having to go out every night or impressing others. Would love to be with a gamer or movie lover, Animal lover (cats in particular :D) More of an introvert like me, Loyal and honest, able to be open about anything with me just like I would be with her. Intellectually curious, open to experiencing new things with me when we both feel up to it.

*Ok want to be clear about this one, I hate to bring up sex stuff in this because that is definitely not the reason for this post but I want to be honest about this to!

Sex of course is extremely important to any relationship and while that is definitely not something I'm going to jump into the second we talk, I still think its a really important subject to be open about. While Im pretty sure I don't have crazy fetishes or anything I still feel its a really important topic to talk about at some point!*

I know this is a huge long shot and if you read this far...well thank you so much! You are awesome! Have an amazing night and hopefully I'll hear from someone!

Me: https://imgur.com/a/bi9SZhf