...Because he doesn't seem to exist and yet I want him. So here I am, sitting in the dim light, knowing fully well I should get to sleep instead, since it's late and Monday is poking round the corner. Time zone wise I am in Europe but I don't care if you live in the same country as me, because let's face it, a husky accent puts me into a jelly state.

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I want to feel butterflies again. I want to feel wanted, special, and importantly enough to be on the list of people you prioritise. Basically I want an online boyfriend. I want you to be 'my person' and I want to be 'yours'. I want someone who can use his words, because I don't wanna have to drag words from you to keep the conversation up. Besides that, words is a turn on for me. The written word has a power, and I don't think everyone sees that, but to me, it does. I want to feel that excitement rush you get , when someone special message you and I want to be the same reason in return.

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I miss long late night talks on the phone. That kind we used to do when the phone was simply one you spoke in. I want to lay there in bed, closing my eyes and concentrate on your voice, your sexy warm accent voice, as you make me chuckle and laugh. I miss that. I wanna do that with you, when we have known each other a while. I'm shy you see.

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Also, I'm 5'4, always having trouble reaching the high shelfs, brown eyes and with dark blonde shoulder lenght hair. I'm curvy and chubby, so there's that too. I tend to say things as they are, and often take things literrally, which means jokes sometimes go straight over my head, but please just laugh at that with me. I have asperger, and you have to be okay with that. It means some things are hard for me, like for instance, stepping up to strangers and just start talking is very difficult and makes me anxious, which also makes it hard meeting new men. So yes I am single, but I am aching badly to fill that void inside me.

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I love travelling (would be fab if you do too) and if we hit it off, I would like if you would be open to meet down the line. It might just be for a week of fun, getting together, if you live far from me. But we could explore the city, quality time.

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I want this to be a long term relationship. I want a connection. So please if you don't intend to stay around or if you only want a fwb, don't write me, that's not what I want.

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And now, I really, like really really have to get some sleep before work starts. So I'll end this with a pic of me, because let's face it, attraction matters. Night night from me.

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https://imgur.com/XqUtu8R