Good morning,

Another day has begun, and another pot of coffee has been brewed. Not much in my life lately to get excited over, but those first few sips sure have a way of making my day.

As the days grow shorter, and we creep ever so closely to the end of this year, I start to wonder if I am the only one who feels content with where they are...but also cold inside.

I tell myself, my friends and my family that I am happy on my own, and in my current situation, but as the days go by, doing nothing spectacular, I wonder if it's all a trick I have played on myself in order to not feel alone.

I drink my coffee, swipe endlessly on dating apps that I know by now all are just cash grabs, and tell myself I just want something casual...the feeling of finding the "one" is a joke and if I could just find someone to go out, and be with a few days a week, everything would be perfect.

It's amazing what we are able to tell ourselves in order to stay in ruts that we are in. That tomorrow will be different, but still end up going to bed, feeling the same.

Not sure why I am posting this, perhaps I am seeking those of you who feel the same, hoping for validation, or maybe I am just clearing out some random junk rattling around in my head to make room for something different.

Anyways, I am a father of 4 older kids, 3 of which I haven't seen in years, and spending the holidays mostly at home. Looking for some companionship, someone to chat with and pass the hours with, and just see how things go.

If you are over 30, somewhere in the US, and looking for someone to talk to, hit me up. Hope everyone has a great holiday season and New Year.