34 [M4F] New Jersey, Just a guy looking for someone to love (friends are also welcome)

So I've been alone for about 8 years now, and I've been trying to put myself out there. I really miss having someone who I can be affectionate with, someone to hold, to kiss, to just be excited to wake up every day to speak to that person. I miss having someone who would actually care about what I was doing in my daily life and that I would care the same about them. I miss being flirty with the women I talk to and just trying to show someone I care about them. I miss being able to make someone smile, and to just feel blessed to have that person and their smile in my life. Im just sick of being alone. I want to find someone I can build something real with. Someone I can truly and deeply care about. Someone who won't be embarrassed of me and will let me be a part of their life and vice versa. Ive never even been with someone where I wasnt just some secret and was made to feel ashamed of myself, slowly turning to hate myself over time. I want a true, deep connection, and at this point in my life I am willing to finally let myself be open with someone again, and no matter what fights or things we may get into I will always want to work them out with you. I just want to find the woman I love and I will never stop looking.

So now that all that cheesy stuff is done, im a huge nerd that loves sooo many things. I love anime, music, movies, manga, video games, trading card games, etc etc. Im also really looking for someone who would be willing to learn things I like for example learning how to play Magic The Gathering or just playing it with me in general. Also I'd love to learn about the things you like as well. I always like learning new things, especially learning something that could potentially make someone happy.

I hope that some people find something interesting about me or are looking for the same things I am and we can chat. I hope to hear from any of you soon!