Hello… I [34F] am not really sure if this is the right sub for my rant ..: but I just want to share it out there … I have been single for a very very long time in my life… I have been in relationships only twice, that too just for a few months. I am a well educated women , who is independent, built her career, travelled a lot, and has made her life alone ..

I have been really feeling the need to have a partner in my life. Someone with whom I can vibe with in real. I don’t know, I feel lost or depressed or very sad that I don’t have anyone with whom I can share my secrets and my life going. I can definitely share it with my good friends,… but I have realised, they don’t share such intimate things with me unless I ask .. here I feel, why do I jump to tell my life stories… I feel, maybe I should have someone of my own to whom I can share things and who also things me worthy enough to share such things …

I am actually desperate to have a good relationship… but I know, I can’t be with anyone in a relationship if it doesn’t make me feel respected, trust, and I know he is the one …

I can’t do friends with benefits, I can’t be in a situation ship, I can’t be with someone just for passing my time. I really don’t know how to proceed. I have met a lot of men through dating apps and even arranged setups .. there was never any vibe in such setups …

I now focus on growing things organically … but there haven’t been much single n vibe matching men around …

Even, if I try to make my mind that I have to live all my life alone .. it just doesn’t go for long.. I really become very sad …

I don’t know how to proceed.. Even here if I am posting, this is after a long long thinking … though not much hope, but just trying to be out there