Relationships: you wanna be in them, but the aftertaste, when it ends, is bitter-to-mellow regardless

I'm at crossroads wherein my emotional self is often craving to connect and feel that warmth of listening to someone, being heard, and if you live in the same town as I do, going down for a walk, holding hands together. It's naive and ehh inducing to mention the idea of holding someone's hand right off the second paragraph of a r/r4r30plus post, but the void that's being left behind from a relationship I've been moving on from, has slowly morphed that want into a need of some sorts, demoting such a connection from a psychological to a basic need, if Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs means anything to you.

At this very moment, I'm listening to a Taylor Swift song onto repeat. It feels great when you connect with music that's from a time, when you were just you, and the person you are trying to move on from - that person had yet to come to your life! During recovery phase of any relationship end, you try to connect back with your roots or the back to the old me transition, where activities/places/people that once were ignored and/or mattered to you, take the limelight, to keep yourself distracted from throwing a pity party, as you move on.

I'd prefer that you can voice chat and eventually be okay with video chat. Texting can only do so much as introduce two people to one another; texting has a shelf life of its own. If you are too worried about your privacy, choose any platform of your choosing, and I don't think it creates more than few minutes to create our throwaways.

I'll leave this post with something I've heard couple of years ago.

I guess when you're young...
you just believe...
there'll be many people
with whom you'll connect with.
Later in life you only realize
it only happens a few times.

PS I'm a happy camper irl. Reflections can be melancholic. Doesn't mean that I'm sombre by disposition!