I can't sleep, words I say often. I am primarily dormant through the looking glass but internally restless, always. I sometimes imagine what it might be like to have meaningless static in my head. Would I be happier? I am looking for something special, but I wonder if I deserve to be looking for that. Would I be considered unique to you? Likely not. I have been called all of those things, and yet nothing seems to stick ever. I blame myself mostly; running is what I am good at. Taking care of others, too. It takes a long while for me to feel comfortable; I am not sure if l ever have been comfortable. I want stability. I don't know what that looks like.

Ideally, I would love for that to be love, complete dependence, and utmost trust. Think - messy, intense, but entirely ours. I'm highly independent but exceptionally needy with the right person. I don't think I’ve ever truly been with the right person. I like alone time, but not being alone.

I love to read and to read to others. I think long walks in the snow in the middle of the night in complete silence are euphoric. I have a dry and dark sense of humor and overall presence, but little bits of light pass through. Do you want to get to know me? I want a likeminded soul. I need someone to challenging.

Romantically assertive and intellectually stimulating. Would like an in-person dynamic eventually.

I'm successful by industry standards. You would not think that by looking at me. Cutthroat when I need to be. I would say I am conventionally attractive and looking for the same. My mind is what matters. Let me have a go at yours.

Hard no's: Emotionally unavailable people, dishonesty, over the age of 43 or under the age of 27, those who don't enjoy living moderately healthy lifestyles, not a fan of kids, sleeping in silence, morning people