I want to be done with this shit, but I keep coming back because I'm stupidly desperate for love. I fucking hate being alone--live with my ex, but only to help parent our child, and it's even worse to be around someone who used to love you than it is to be truly solo. (My kid is worth it, but still.)
I don't have hobbies, at least not yet. Fuck yoga, and bars are boring--can't get drunk due to metabolism, and I don't want to anyway. Hiking is fine, and so can exploring new places be, but I don't have a car, so I waste time watching stupid videos and shit. I try to read and watch movies and play video games, but I end up doing so alone, so it's not worth it. I'm starting to play Magic: the Gathering again, but I'm poor; it's a slow process, but a gift is pushing me back into Commander, and, fuck it, I might try Pauper. I'm unemployed due to psychiatric disability, but tentatively looking for work, and soon to get a bike so I can at least travel to the nearby shopping plazas (god that sounds so Midwestern) without getting mugged. I like to write occasionally, but I'm not good enough to make money at it, so /shrug.
I'm looking to talk here (and then perhaps Discord) and develop a romance. I'm not interested in sexting. I could sext, and even fuck irl, but that's not why I'm here. I want love, damn it! Also, it's not as if I'm attractive; missing teeth, and I (mtf nonbinary) look like a guy with tits because Arizona's gender health setup can go fuck itself. If that isn't enough to put you off, I'm primarily interested in women (cis or trans) or femme enbies, not men, but I'm willing to entertain the idea of chatting with men. Just don't expect anything.
I don't really know why I bothered with this. Hope is a bitch.
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