But not new Trek. Comforting, nostalgia trek. I want to have a connection with someone, but I'm also in a transition point in my life and not sure what I want in relation to well, everything. Lots has happened in the last 6 months including a deep personal loss. And my subsequent confusion & feeling lost. I've been struggling a little, but also try to recognize how far I've come.

I get most of the way through the day, but the hour or two before bed sometimes gets more difficult. I miss saying good night to someone. I usually watch something and I've started up Star Trek again, so why not? I know it's probably a really selfish thing to do, nothing is going to fill the hole they've left, and the idea of filling it is almost offensive to me. But I want some sort of distraction, and since I've been making (mostly) good choices, I'm not using alcohol or going out, which I would have done in the past. This is also a weird coping method, seeking out strangers, but there is a thrill to getting to know someone new and the internet is sorta safe.

Also about me- I'm trying to learn to paint. I miss my garden, not having growing things in the ground is a temporary bummer of a situation but that would normally take up a lot of my time. I'm looking for a real job but just got hired for a shitty one until something else comes up. I like cooking & enjoy food, though not as much as I did prior to Covid. I think "I Don't Care Anymore" by Phil Collins is better than "In the Air Tonight". The best episode of Star Trek is DS9 s6e10 "The Magnificent Ferengi" and we can discuss your opinions on that.

PM me here, then Discord or stick with Reddit, I don't use other messaging apps. Happy to share a recent picture after introductions are made.