Hi stranger,

It’s 10:51pm, and I’m in bed after a relatively decent day. I cleaned the bathroom and did laundry, and sketched a dried rose (poorly) into my notebook and scanned some photos from the albums to back them up digitally. I did some reading. I did some writing too. I didn’t do keyboard playing and basic math learning as intended though, but, I’ll intend them another day.

This June has been good to me. I wake with more energy and motivation these days, likely because I’ve been making a conscious choice to sleep better recently, but also because I sense I’m starting a new chapter in life as I begin a new job in August after a somewhat uncomfortable yet also lazy and freeing extended period of unemployment. It’s really just an internship (I know! At 31 :s), but still, it’s something.

I’m a loner through and through. I love my solitude sometimes and feel it painfully weigh upon me at other times, so there is some conflict in my attitude to my perpetual aloneness, but... as I start to work again soon and begin to also go outside/interact/be active more I think I’ll welcome the occasional new contact or acquaintance or at least try to be receptive to new connections. Or at least I tell myself that, in reality, it’s going to be anxiety inducing going and being “out there” more.

Some things I want to do this summer: learn to drive, write a lot, learn basic math, improve my cooking skills, dance alone in my room and maybe learn to actually dance (even just a bit because I’m honestly abysmal)... and read more. To name a few things. I expect I’ll encounter a lot of inner obstacles and resistance to sustaining this good streak I’m having... as I have plenty of personal issues to still work through, but work through them, I must. And will... I hope (and cheerfully).

Anyway, that’s a snapshot of my life now. Thanks for serving as the blank page upon which I could journal or flesh this moment or day out, stranger. If you feel like it, sending a few words my way by letting me know what’s going on in your life lately would be welcome. Anything new? Do you feel stuck in routine? What, if anything, are you looking forward or working on or planning for tomorrow or even the next few years? Or is thinking that far ahead too wishful.

Sorry if what I just wrote above all sounds dull beyond belief. I can absolutely be dull and it’s also one of the reasons why I’m so alone so often. But I can also sometimes be a willing and capable listener. So, if you’d like to use my inbox as your journal or blank page (but one that can reply!) today too... well, feel free. I’d love to hear how you are, or what you’re doing lately, or thinking lately, or just hopinh for...

Thanks for reading.