East Coast U.S.A., age 34, intersex with feminine appearance and no set gender identity besides being a human with long hair and bright green eyes. I am different, but I try not to worry exhaustively about that. I do worry about maybe being too soft or too squishy..

Aquarius, Earth Dragon34 years old, female intersex, sterilized, 5 ft 7 in, 210 lbsGreen eyes, pale white skin, golden-brown hairI sing, read, write, game on PC and consoles, explore myths and study often.I can sing to you in Japanese..

Immediate difficulties with me are that I am diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress, Autism Spectrum w/ Sensory Processing Disorder, social anxiety and chronic pain. I am a survivor of childhood sexual and physical abuse and desperately seek for compassionate, trustworthy companionship that I might be able to grow real happiness in the company of another and know what it means to truly feel loved and safe.

I'm hung up on my ended relationship-- 7 years with a very beautiful coward I wished to cuddle and keep close for all of eternity. She said goodbye. Don't ask me to let go.. I love her, even knowing she has chosen to end things and I have come to understand the weakness of her character and her fear of the future. I will always love her and always wish that our time together never ended. Please understand.. I am not seeking replacement in any form and am not even sure if I can share my heart again.. I want to try, if there is a will. Please lend me your heart and help me find peace if there is any with you.. my heart aches.

Can you have compassion for my preoccupation?

Can you respect what is already so deeply embedded in my soul?

Take this and don't be fooled, I am flawed and often self-shy - https://imgur.com/a/GyiXzb1

Can you love someone that has known love and lost it?

Can love last forever, even after repeated hardship?

I should be honest.. I'm very attracted to the mind and shape of a transfemme who does not opt for lower-body modification. My romantic and sexual experience is with a transwoman. There are so many different ways to identify oneself, please do part peacefully if anything I've said strikes you wrong. I myself have spent much of my life questioning my own body and ultimately decided against both top and bottom surgeries by the age of 28, when I finally obtained permission to be surgically sterilized via laser laparoscopy. I feel much more comfortable with my body and still open to exploring the natural shape but I struggle to identify as either male or female, only knowing that I look and sound female and many of my feelings and actions cause confusion to individuals who rely on appearance alone to determine. There are things I have come to understand I am more comfortable sharing with a transfemale than an assigned at birth female and that is something I would rather discuss in private as it leads to more sensitive body/mind topics.

My favorite thing about discovering the world with another is becoming best friends and getting comfortable sharing space and bodies. Things such as grooming, bathing together, washing each other's hair.. there are so many things to do together that never have to be done alone again.

Don't ask about how I am please.. I'm the worst at that kind of question! Just know that I'm hurting and I want to reach out. I have no expectations, and wish there might be even a small hope.. Be braver than me, just start writing the letter you want me to read and I will. Discord all the same, Shirua#5984