I usually am pretty good at withstanding the withdrawls that come within the first few days of abstaining from smoking (I try not to smoke during the work week).

I've decided that the constant cycle of going through those withdrawls just to catch a buzz on the weekends isn't worth it anymore. The anxiety that comes in waves is what bothers me particularly the most out of all the symptoms. The rest are manageable but I'm not really a person that gets anxiety. That shit is truly for the birds.

I could just continue smoking to never get these symptoms right? Well the only reason I began smoking in the first place was for that beautiful buzz of a head rush. And obviously as we all know the diminishing returns of that. After a day or so I find the buzz no longer exists and im just feeding the addiction. It stinks. In a perfect world I could enjoy that rush without it being harmful.

So I guess I'm going to white knuckle it and cold turkey nicotine addiction out of my life. I certainly won't miss the coughing and rare juul attacks.