i’ve been smoking since i was 15, vaping since 18, and have gone back and forth between the two countless times. i need to quit, i feel like i can’t. i was doing better quitting with cigs but still it’s difficult.

i’m in an artist community and everyone does it. it’s so normalized. but like, my stomach lining is straight up unwell. my hair’s been lowkey falling out for years. my circulation to my legs is not always great. the list goes on. i look healthy from an outer lens, but it’s messing me up.

a few weeks ago i switched back to vaping, which was probably the biggest mistake i could’ve done. how do people do this without noticing any effects- like, i wish that were me. i just took 2, 2 measly first rips of the morning and feel like shit.

so: how do you navigate social situations and smoking/vaping? what apps can i use? techniques to try?

there’s never a good time to quit, and, right now is a horrible time for me to try- but i feel so gross.