I’m a damn incel.

Some haters said it’s my “personality”not my looks… I wonder if that’s true? Obviously chemistry hits different for different folks. Same with looks - beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

High-key I think I’m too dark-skinned, too masculine presenting… But I don’t want to “transition” into a “man”. So, I have big DD boobs & short hair. I think I scare people cuz I’m hella “masc presenting” but people stereotype me (like I’m some hard ass hyper masculine wanna be male) and when I break the mold it’s a turn off.

Like, why do I wanna learn how to twerk but not wear make up? Why don’t I watch basketball? Why don’t I walk around with a strap on?

I love black/mixed women too but Jesus help me. None of them approach me. No reply on the lil dating apps. Most of them are straight or SEVERELY battling inner homophobia. When I do approach them they get such an ego boost they act like I proposed when I give them a compliment… Easy way to ruin a potential friendship too just by trying.

Oh and I’m woman for woman, so if I see a cute stud oh my gosh, they act like it’s the end of the WORLD if I approach them! “I’d never do that I’m only into femmes” like OK 👍🏾 I’m stud 4 femme 4 stud but OK.

I just went to Long Beach Pride this weekend and saw some nice couples and I just can’t wait until I have my lil lady that’s just as happy and proud to be holding hands at pride with me. I’m 31 and it’s getting old like me seeing happy couples when I’m not one of them. More power to my ladies in happy relationships! It’s so hard for me to find one.

I’m just ranting here wondering if any of y’all been single for so long? How u hanging?

Edit: Thanks to all of you babes with all of the queer POC suggestions! I hope we all find healthy friendships & relationships very soon! Thanks for the encouragement as well. If you’re single check these comments cuz some folks have given great suggestions! GLTA!