This might be too specific to me, but I thought I’d ask. My father died in 2012. He was a boomer who had been a hippie convert to evangelical Christianity, become a minister, a die-hard Obama hater (his #1 argument against Obama was that he was only “half black”), and Fox News addict. He also worked for an overtly political ministry and, unbeknownst to most everyone but a few of us, was a closet UFO and conspiracy fan. He was also a dedicated and gentle grandfather to my kids, and the best friend I ever had.

Still, the last few years of his life, his rages at the left, gays, and immigrants had become more regular and more just... mean. He was only mean to people he didn’t know for the most part. I know that might be hard to understand. His diatribes about those people were reserved for his family mostly. But he and I did cross words a bit and he did once say we were “diametrically opposed” because I voted for Obama. That was so painful at the time.

So, all prologue to how I’m feeling about this Q stuff. I just know, without any doubt at all, that my dad would have been 100% into it. And it’s made me feel shame and guilt that I am glad, in a way, that he’s not here to be a part of this insidious problem. And I hate feeling that way.

Anyone else ever feel anything like this?