Ugh, I don't even know where to begin without word vomiting, but I guess I'll start with what happened just yesterday.

I went to a dinner with my parents and 2 other family friends, it was fun because I hadn't seen the friends in years and it was a great time. Until I got home.

My father pulled me to his office, saying, "I want to let you in on something." He pulls out different stacks of foreign currency and starts talking about "The great reset" where world currencies are going to increase in purchasing power, and by trading them after that happens, he'll have millions.

Now, I'm well aware that forex trading is an actual thing. However, this is just so far-fetched because he started talking about how all the world's problems were caused by some ancient cabal. They were behind things such as 9/11 to prevent this "great reset" from happening.

I just nodded and said, "ok, well, we'll see what happens. " Because I wanted the conversation to end, but oh, how wrong I was. He then goes off on a tangent about how drag queens are wearing dildos in front of kids and that elementary school nurses are giving kids hormone blockers.

For clarification, I'm trans (ftm) and I just said that "those things aren't happening, it took me years to get on hormones so I highly doubt school nurses are just slinging hormone blockers left and right." He went off saying how much respect he lost for me, how he could give me proof, but I had to give him till tomorrow and that I can't see past my own bias.

After that, I had a conversation with my mother (who heard the whole conversation), and I told her how the whole thing made me feel. She said, "You're both just too hard-headed and always get like this. Just drop it. Your dad loves you." Like, I'm having a really hard time believing that after the guy just said he lost all respect for me when I challenged his insane thoughts.

I just don't know what to do anymore. It's so exhausting just merely existing, having my access to healthcare stripped away by gop, and fighting with my own dad.

Sorry for the word vomit, but I needed this off my chest.

Edit to add: Suprise suprise, it's the following day, and he's acting like nothing happened. Love this for me...