My therapist says there are lots of secondary emotions that the big emotions build off of. I found when I started feeling things again, it was anger and frustration. I’ve now started feeling fear again, and anxiety. These are supposedly precursors to things like motivation, and happiness, but I’m just so stuck. I’ve been doing more things that are more than the bare necessities, like decorating my bedroom and tidying up. But I just feel stuck. I’m wondering when I’ll start to shower more than once a week, when I’ll feel laughter and joy. I’m even dating someone and I still don’t really feel fully present with them. I suppose, though, that these are all good signs that these feelings will come back. I remember the pure emptiness that lasted for so many months, the complete lack of working memory, the way music was noise and trying to watch TV was like looking at a blank wall. I don’t miss that horrible, hopeless, nothing time. I hope everyone is having a good day and I wish everyone the best. It is so tough recovering but as time goes on without an episode, it seems things do come back and the negative symptoms fade. Thank you if you read this.