I need to learn what people do and imitate it in order to look like normal functioning being again.

It's hard for me to articulate my thoughts but basically I smoked a lot of weed earlier this year and over time realized that we're all programed to act a certain way (this is obviously is not new around here). The things we do today (go to school, get a job, get married, die) are pretty much laid out for us by society, and reinforced with religion (ugh). I don't want to be locked into that kind of vicious cycle, I want to travel the world and fucking experience life. I'm not sure if I even want to get married now, seeing as though nobody around here vibes with me on that 'psychonaut' mental level. Anyways, I'm glad I've found an outlet to express the same thoughts as you guys!

It's hard to accept the cycle of life we as humans are subconsciously conditioned to. I feel as though I've mentally transcended into another plane of existence, or have basically become a Psychonaut. How do you guys go about living life "normally"?

Edit: Also, having realized these things, is it still necessary for me to go on a proper trip?