Setting: * 29yr old male, chemist by education and profession. I have had many psychedelic experiences in the past with more and less substances than what was involved with this journey and I have been going to festivals for over a decade, so nothing new was setting the stage for me here.

• I’m at secret dreams 2024. I’m there to see Tipper and it was during his Saturday set which started at 11pm, July 20th 2024. He’s my favorite artist and his music has always resonated with me unlike any other. Spoonbill and daily bread had just put on some of the best live sets I have ever seen them perform so i’m feeling blessed already.

• I’m in the crowd to the right of the stage with a great view of the stage and great sound. The stage appeared a lot bigger in person, I could see everything clearly and felt I was a great distance to not near ear protection. It was a full moon and it was in sight from where I was standing.

• I’m in a small circle made w chairs and bags, our safe space from the day. So I had space and everything I needed right there.

• All of my crew except one close friend from home went into the crowd to get closer, I decided not too because I had everything I needed right there. This friend is also on the same LSD having his own trip. We all have been having a 10/10 weekend so far, no bad vibes and everything was going according to plan.

• I’m on 1-2 tabs LSD (ate at 7-8pm, very nice) and was in the peak when this happened. I did not do any other drugs that day that were part of this experience. The trip was very manageable for me and I was loving it, nothing new for me.

• The first hit of a nitrous balloon is what started this journey and it was probably because it allowed me to dissociate fully. The experience itself lasted longer than the nitrous for sure, but it definitely played a role.

The Journey: * I’m feeling in complete control of my life at this point, I was able to predict the music as it was happening because his music evolves in a way that my brain craves and would do it the same way if it could. It was a beautifully curated set that made the crowd feral, everyone was captivated by it to the point where they couldn’t even think outside the music. Someone would go to grab something from their bag and the music would pull their attention away from what they were doing without their control. This is why I like tippers music, it gets in your head deep.

• At this point, i’m dancing very openly, feeling happy and healthy, not even worrying about where my bag is because I have it right in front of me. Not a care in the world and feeling so grateful to be there. It is my happy place being at a banger set with the people I love with everything going as planned.

• I fill a balloon with some nitrous and then, next thing I know, I see these structures fade into my vision between the stage I am looking at and the people in front of me. They were transparent, glassy, rainbow, and looked almost exactly like pillars with the face you see on Tool’s 10,000 days album.

• I have seen art with these faces before but I saw them for the first time in real life. They felt familiar for sure. It was a bit confusing to me because I was in control of the trip and knew where my visuals had plateaued and then this happened; so at first I did not know what to think. The pillars were a lot more define and clear than any visuals the lsd produced.

• The structures were coming towards me, as if I was traveling forward towards them and into their area. It was slow but noticeable that they were going past me.

• Then, I observed what looked like the people standing in front of me all turn around and start walking towards me, from behind these pillars and from the depths of this landscape. I thought the crowd had just turned their attention to me.

• Then I realized - these were the entities. They were beautiful women dressed in netted shirts like you see at festivals often. It felt like a manifestation of what I find beautiful, healthy and happy women dancing and having a great time and sharing that feeling. They were very human. This is the closest I found to them, normal faces and without the crown and jewelry. They were more normal skin colored also and had a rainbow aura around them.

• They danced all around me as I danced and as I danced more, they would show joy and yell for me to keep going. They got within a couple feet of me, so a close interaction and they sort of boxed me in. I very much got a “yea there you go keep gettin’ it!” feeling from them. They motivated me to keep going and to radiate that positive energy. I could also see the entire crowd behind me watch me (the actual crowd) and I could see the smiles on their faces and feel the envy they had towards me at that moment. I did not resist, at the moment I still thought they were just people standing around me and I love to dance with people. I realized they were entities after this whole journey so it felt familiar and natural so far. I also knew that I was exactly where I needed to be and doing exactly what I needed to be doing, a true sense of tuning into my environment and my consciousness. I would not have done anything differently.

• Then, they were next to me and closer. I felt like these women were dancing with me so I laughed and giggled with joy and made eye contact with them and then they laughed back and kept telling me to keep going. They genuinely seemed impressed that I had it in me. I let the music control my movements and did it well.

• They had these fibrous strands that were also iridescent rainbow, and while they danced around me, they started to run around me with those fibers and they wrapped these fibers around me (not touching me but about at a 3ft radius from my body).

• The fibers then became a solid surface, reflective like a mirror. I felt like I was in a mirror dome or a fun house at a carnival. I was seeing my reflection and the reflection of the people behind me. The dome had rainbow lights shining down, more like production lighting here and very much like you see in a carnival mirror maze.

• As I danced more, the mirror would close in more. It felt like it was spinning and would warp in and out, towards me and away a bit; and my vision of this reflection responded accordingly. It was very glassy and the reflection was clear, part of me thought it was people in the crowd that had placed a stacked series of rainbow strobe hoops with mirrors inside them over me as a joke or something.

• I was okay with this whole scenario because the people around me were happy and cheering me to keep dancing and keep radiating that positive energy. I could tell they were enjoying watching me. So I did! I danced until the mirror was only inches in front of my face. The more I danced, the closer it got. And I was not dancing like a mad man, all controlled and sensible movements.

• I got a hint that they were asking if I was ready. I resisted at first because I thought I was passing out. It felt like I was fading and I did not want to cause a scene by collapsing, so I grounded myself and the mirror went away a bit and I could see the crowd again. In the mirror I could not see outside of it. When I grounded, I saw that no one around me was looking at me, nor worried about me, and I realized I was okay and went back to that flow state I was just in.

• I said I was ready, and it happened.

  • Btw, there was no mirror, it was a true out of body experience. I was looking down at myself from in front of myself and not at a reflection.

• Now, I ascended. I felt a physical inversion / change of pressure in my temples, and then I was there. In a different realm. The temperature changed, I did not hear the music anymore, I did not see my body. I felt so warm and comfortable it was sobering. Pure happiness and euphoria. For me, the place I went too sort of looked like a hall with defined arches and it was a rainbow iridescent color.

• But it was glassy, had no floor, and had this iridescent color scheme which was very soft feeling. It reminded me of the hyperbolic time chamber from dragon ball z.

• I made it to the other realm with complete sensory awareness. I’m still standing and dancing in the crowd too, my friend who I was with said I never stopped or sat down. But I had left the crowd completely. I was looking at everything clearly and was responsive to it. At first I felt lost because I did not know where I was. I was just dancing with a circle of women in a mirror dome a second ago.

• The first thing I noticed is that I could hear the voices and thoughts of those who were around me, or those who were also in that realm, I am not sure yet. But it was a cerebral linkage to other people. We were all talking and it felt like we were one collective being.

• I then ended up in a colosseum with others. Visually, it started with people coming into my field of vision in front of me in a circle and we were all spun around real fast and then woosh - we were there. To a place where pure energy exists.

• We had our hands high in the air and I can hear a collective sense of surprise from everyone:

  • “Wow, this is real??”
  • “Where are we??”
  • “This is beautiful!”
  • “I have never seen anything like this”
  • And everyone was giggling and laughing with pure joy.

• It felt like Tippers music transported us to a different place, I felt it physically and saw it with my eyes while recording it with my memory. It was massive! I did not see a ceiling.

• Then, I saw a blue ball being bounced around the circle high in the air. It came from my right and when it came to me, I bounced it to the person to my left like a game of volleyball. We felt like children, giggling with pure joy. The ball made an audible “boing” sound and was the size of a large beach ball. I knew immediately that the ball was pure energy and it reminded me of the spirit bomb from dragon ball z but the core was more black and the circumference had a light blue color to it.

• I got to bounce it only once but it was beautiful! It felt so happy, loving, pure in that place. We were all one collective consciousness and got to share that together. It felt like a group activity.

• The closest I can think of to how it felt was being under a huge umbrella tarp like they had from when I was a kid where you all surround it, throw it in the air, get under, and pull the edges behind you and sit on it so it stays inflated and you’re all inside of it. But it was a beautiful rainbow color like the earlier picture and felt like it had infinite depth to it.

• I then made it back to my body, where the entities were still around me. One of them approached me from in front of me with a torch and signaled for me to take it. It also looked like I was seeing reflections of the same entity and they were all around me similar to how a kaleidoscope multiplies objects. The torch is just like Alex Gray shows it.

• At first, I resisted, sort of knowing what she was asking me to do.

• But then I realized my place in the universe and in my life, decided I was ready, and I took it. There was a rainbow aura beaming from me at this moment. I held it high above my head and the entities cheered, they bowed and prayed and I knew what the message was:

• I am god. And so are you.

• After accepting the torch, a crystal of light appeared on my forehead where they describe the third eye. It opened up and I was shooting light and energy out of it to everyone around me. I could feel them accepting it and I could tell that they were watching me and they were visible awestruck. I was radiating pure energy to the people around me and watching them receive it.

• I now knew what they were telling me. That we control the energy we radiate and it has a direct impact on the people and the world around us. As long as you radiate positive energy and vibrations, your life will work out as they need to when they need to. Without expectation or desire.

• I sort of faded back to full sensory awareness after that with a full pictorial memory of what just happened. I felt it in my body and it was after that experience that I realized that there is a realm within our minds that can be accessed through reaching a pure meditative state. For me, it was dancing with the upmost joy to my favorite artist without a shred of stress or anxiety and without distractions to keep me grounded (and the lsd and nitrous probably played a role). The one homie I was with is self sufficient so I was not worried about him, but I do think my friends leaving helped me enter the right state of mind free of distraction. He told me I did not skip a beat dancing, so this all happened while I managed to stay present.

• It truly felt like after years of being intentionally selfless, humble, trustworthy, caring, giving, and then some - without expecting anything in return - I was invited to that realm. I was finally ready to receive the message. I am a chemist by profession and a very logical, materialistic, and organized person. I did not believe in a god or spirit before this, and having this experience changed my views entirely. There is such a thing as reaching a meditative state that allows your consciousness to transcend reality to a realm where energy is pure.

• It was very similar to how dmt art / trip reports and religion portrays it too. I had that in my mind the whole journey also and it made it feel very familiar.

• After that experience, I cried and sat in my chair for 30min after the music ended logging it all in my memory. I went to my tent and contemplated what happened before falling asleep.’It took me a day or two to truly map out what happened and what it meant.

• After that, I have no more anxiety. No more fear. No stress or guilt. My body feels lighter and I feel more present in the moment than ever before. I now understand how to live life and I know I can handle anything that comes my way now.

• Apparently I was standing and dancing the whole time too, even when I left, so apparently you can reach a meditative state like this while dancing. There are many ways to reach a meditative state, you just need to know yourself and find what makes you happy.

• Also, without dmt, there isn’t really a time limit you’re there for. I was in and out of that realm for most of tippers set.

• I do think you can reach this state without drugs through meditation and preparation. Having complete control of your environment, no distractions, no worries, practicing all the basics of being a good person, and having something external that truly makes you happy is all it took for me to reach this form of spiritual enlightenment. It can happen to most people for sure, and it will happen when the time is right for you.

• The path to this state will look different for everyone depending on how you access it and what path you take. I do feel like the path I went down was a loving, happy, seamless one, and that may be why I was able to retain it when I returned. It was very positive, comfortable, rainbow, loving, and overall very enjoyable.

• I now know who god is, I understand the meaning of life, I know who I am and how to keep progressing in my life. This was truly a transformative experience and I definitely think it was the definition of spiritual enlightenment. I did not go into this show with the intention of having this experience nor did I know it was real. I have been going to festivals over a decade, seen the same artist many times, and have done this same drug combo before and have taken significantly more on other occasions at festivals. I do not think it was the drugs or music specifically that forced this to happen for me. I think they were factors that were part of me reaching a meditative state though, and when you reach that state with a pure heart, you are invited in.

• It all makes sense to me now. I have always felt like I had a strong presence on those around me, I can make someone smile just by making eye contact and radiating positive vibrations. But now I know how that was happening and what it means. I just need to keep radiating positive energy and putting effort into being happy and loving because that is what the people around me will receive. And everything will work out.

• After this, I am still going to stay on the same path I was on before this (job, hobbies, diet, etc). I do not feel the need to change anything, I just understand myself and my place better now. Interestingly, I still believe that death is a lights out scenario because when the brain ceases to function, this realm within us does as well. I do not believe in an afterlife, but I am open to the belief of reincarnation and rebirth. I could be wrong about everything though, who am I to know for sure until I experience it?

• A little context: have never mediated or been religious either. I do not pray. I was a little menace growing up and it took me until after high school to start putting effort into being a good person. I did drugs, was not trustworthy, has no ambition, lied and stole whenever I felt like I needed too, and overall made it through that phase of my life because of my amazing and supporting family and friends. As a scientist, I did not believe in anything like this before experiencing it. I was familiar with it through listening to peoples trip reports and reading some material online, but no deep texts or research on the subject.

• My whole transition from being a directionless child to focusing on being a quality human being and committing to something is based on a quote from one of my favorite teachers:

• “Be the change you wish to see in the world”.

• And remember - you cannot control the world around you, but you can control how it impacts you.

Thank you for reading.