I’m going to an iboga retreat in a week. The guy is so nice but there’s a bit of a feeling like I can’t be too myself because I usually tend to control conversations. Ego is a normal human tendency and I’m not blaming the guy for it. Im going into this experience in a bit of a crisis so I’m not exactly as emotionally impressive as I’d like to be. I’m definitely trying to be friendly and I’m not disrespectful. My ego is putting up a fight because it knows what’s about to happen.

Something tells me that this is part of the journey and learning lesson, especially with iboga. I’ve paid for the experience and for non refundable flights anyway. Thoughts?