Taking psychedelics made me understand that I was being perceived. Not that I didn’t understand this before, but it wasn’t until I took psychedelics that I started really thinking about how people experience me and how experiencing me from another perspective was something that I’ll never myself be able to experience.

So I started thinking about how I would feel if I were to perceive “me” from the outside and how I would like “perceiving me” to be the most magical experience possible, and how I would go about making that happen. I struggled with my relationship with my ego because of this though cause I learned a lot of things that I don’t like about myself especially the way I might appear socially but it also helped a lot because it was required to help me realize that it’s okay to have qualities about yourself that aren’t “up to par”, and this thought process also helped me understand how much physical appearance comes into play into everyday interactions, unfortunately.

I definitely ended up obsessing over this though in an unhealthy way, I think that there’s a line you can cross when it comes to “thinking about thinking” (I call it triple thinking: to change the way you originally were going to go about doing something because of the way that you want to be perceived). You can get very lost, too many “mirrors”.

Anyway, has anyone else had a similar experience with psychedelics? If so, why might this happen?