The first time I ever tried shrooms the first thing I noticed was how similar the feeling was to my early childhood. It was like I was forgotten how it felt but then it felt so familiar. It felt like I was going back in time back to home. I even remember seeing visuals during my early childhood. The visuals are like potentiating that feeling.

Once I saw weird glowing rings floating in the air when I was a child. Now I know that they were actually closed eye visuals. I also remember seeing them in the dark. I remember once being in a dreamlike state and seeing a infinite tunnel of pillars like in those dmt trip replications.

One visual effect that really interest me was the visual depth and sharpness which I really associate with my early childhood. Everything looked sharp and glossy and then there was like more depth in everything. Like if everything lookded more 3d than it already was. That effect I get on shrooms but it made me remember that I actually saw everything like that when I was a child. There was also like more emotional depth in everything I perceived. Then I also remember seeing kaleidoscopic patterns and experienced all the other trippy stuff. The childhood was like being constantly on 1-3g.

The emotions were heightened as if was on shrooms. Every emotion was much stronger back then. I have depression and it's definetely affecting that but I don't think that I would be all the way up there if I was completely healthy and sane. I think that childhood just is a lot more serotonergic but I wonder if other people have had those kind of experiences during their childhood. That lasted until I was 12 I think.

It's not the feeling of being high. It's a very abstract feeling that is really hard to put into words. There is a very strong feeling of "home" associated with that. I think it has something to do with the feeling of oneness. It feels like it's a universal and very primitive type of feeling. I would say that it feels like I perceive this world with everyone's eyes. Like if my mind was part of the collective consciousness. It's like if I could perceive this world as we would naturally without any concecpt of self or any knowledge about anything. It's like a factory reset.

I think I just solved it to myself what that feeling is. I think it actually is the feeling of oneness. It's the feeling of naked perception and ego dissolution. That's the feeling I had during early childhood but there were also those other psychedelic effects and visuals back then. Have you had similar experiences?

And sorry for bad grammar. I'm not a native english speaker.