I’ve been enjoying my trips for a while. Had a couple of bad ones, and it seems the more I talk with people a few more than are regular. I remember anytime I was on large doses of mushrooms I would feel so mentally unstable, too many ways to describe. On the last bad trip I had a bit easier time thinking but the only thought I had was “I feel schizophrenic.” Called my friend to ground me but it didn’t help at all, I couldn’t focus on anything; I felt closed in quite literally, the walls weren’t coming in at me, but seemed to be suffocating me. Couldn’t bring myself to open the blinds because I was worried someone would see me. I’d just sit there quietly waiting for….. what? Listening for… what? I knew it was the drugs I knew I took them but it was just pretty bad.

I’m curious because my grandfather had schizophrenia and I saw a post several days ago (can’t find it now) that had a similar question. People seemed to tell her it wasn’t worth the risk, but I can’t find anything to say that using psychedelics can lead to or early onset being schizophrenic?

I’ve searched online and am led almost solely to articles and studies talking about treating schizophrenia with psychedelics or the similarities between some psychedelics and the effects of schizophrenia.

It also seems it very much depends on the psychedelic, all of my experiences thus far have been on mushrooms.

Any help would be appreciated!

Note: Not really related but early on in that same trip I could only speak in Spanish (I was learning at the time) I had an extremely hard time thinking a single word in English. Not sure if that provides anything but it’s quite funny in hindsight.