Hi guys.

So just as the title says. First time trying shrooms, but I’ll give a quick breakdown. I know mixing different things is very stupid but I had no knowledge of psychedelics, I’ve only ever smoked weed and have only taken edibles a handful of times so it’s not something I do regularly at all.

Timeline: Took a tiny piece/dose early in the evening. Was drinking a little bit (two Marg cans). Our group all took doses of the mushrooms.

Didn’t feel anything for an hour or two so took a bit more of the shrooms. Finally started to feel high and some randos offered me a hit of their joint. I normally sober me or even semi drunk me would have refused. I’m so mad I accepted that because I think that combined with the shrooms sent me off the deep end. We aren’t sure if those dudes joint was laced with something or if it was a combo of it all for me, because my friends said that those guys were tweaking when they saw them later on.

Anyways , from that moment I blacked out and I only remember bits and pieces and wasn’t coherent again until like 2-3 hours later.

Basically I traumatized my close friend with my actions. I apparently felt threatened/was terrified of her so I kept running away in a very dangerous place. Like tried jumping out of a car while still moving because I thought I was being kidnapped. I was begging the driver to pull over so I could get out. I ran away from her multiple times and at one point she couldn’t catch me so she lost me for like 20 mins.

I just need some support because while I understand that I traumatized her with all of that, I am feeling so scared and traumatized that I reacted that way and I feel like all of the friends maybe hate me and I was asked to leave the weekend trip early.

It just sucks to have to be on my own, dealing with hearing these things, from something I’ve never done and can’t control. But feeling like everyone is supporting her but I’m kinda left in the cold/isolated/iced out. I understand she is freaked out though having to see me possibly almost accidentally seriously injure myself by running around traffic and shit. I wasn’t trying to harm her or myself though, I just remember feeling extreme fear wanting to get away from her by any means necessary. So crazy :/

I take full responsibility for my actions even though I don’t remember most of them. It just sucks to not have had control.

I’d just like to hear thoughts from people with experience.

Note: sorry for the horrible grammar, I’m exhausted and being a little lazy :/