Hey everyone, first off I haven't done shrooms in about 5 years, I mainly experimented with them in late highschool/early college. Also, I don't believe in literal demons, and if they did exist, this isn't how I'd expect them to behave lol.

I had a few really great trips starting off, then as we increased the dosage and did them more, they started turning into mix, often having elements of insight and important lessons mixed with periods of anxiety and horror. Whenever the bad aspects happened, I'd always see demons. Often they'd be floating in the night sky, just looking menacing, and I'd often get this like unspoken vibe that they hated me, enjoyed my suffering, and wanted the worst for me. My last trip, the one that made me stop, was through and through a hellish experience. At one point I had an ego death, but before that, while I was still with it, I saw the night sky as an orange color with demons in the sky and lining the trees, and I got the vibe again that they were mocking me and laughing at me, telling me I had no control and they controlled the trip, and that it would never end (basically telling me I'm in hell).

It's worth noting I'm diagnosed with recurrent major depressive disorder and anxiety, and had a decent amount of trauma from family addiction in my early teens, so maybe that plays a role?

It just makes me sometimes feel my brain is fucked, especially when I read people having beautiful trips, curing depression, etc. Any feedback or similar stories are welcome. Please no telling me they were real demons, that's a completely unverifiable claim and seems rationally unlikely.