So I was home alone today (like everyday just today I have a lot of free time) ,thus I took my last dose of shrooms.

I think I got emotional and I called my mom. I started explaining her thay she hurt me by doing so and so in the past. The call was 45min long I feel like nothing came out of it. It was like talking to a wall. She started claming I make her feel bad and that I abuse her.

That's funny because I feel like she made me a broken man. And I think like always that the shrooms help me see that suddnely. My childhood was abusive, and that's a fact I struggle with still. And the fact I go to therapy for 8 years now doesn't help her understand that she hurt me. She still think she was a perfect mother, and that hurts me very deeply.

After the call with my mom, I talked to my sister , who agreed with me and told me that she doesn't expect for much from our parents. I think that the fact me and my sister can't relay on parents, emotionally speaking, is horrible. It makes me sad to be born and then throwed away.

Why do parents do things like that?.why give birth and then seperate?