2 days ago I had my first psychedelic trip, in the beginning it was extremely hard to not resist the trip and I got into some thought loops. It was pretty uncomfortable but it wasn't that bad and far from a bad trip. Eventually I felt that piece by piece I started letting go and entered a state where I had 0 judgement towards myself and any human being, I only felt love. Now after the trip I would say it definitely had some positive effects, it was extremely humbling but I also feel really small.

In the past I struggled with social anxiety and eventually it faded away into social awkwardness and now I feel that it has returned to some degree. The trip evaporated my ego but now I'm left with the feeling that there is something missing. How do I deal with this?