I’m currently a freshman in college, and for the past year I have been using psychedelic drugs recreationally. I have done shrooms 10 times (with one terrifying ego death trip), Acid twice, DMT once, Ketamine a few times, and DXM 10 times.

As a result of this psychedelic use I fear I have developed a sort of existential depression. It haunts me everyday. I feel no purpose, and all I can think about is the infinite. I’m scared and don’t know what to do. Recently my anxiety that has been dormant for a few years has come back. I have panic attacks and feel like I’m in a constant existential crisis. I also think I developed subtle HPPD after my last acid trip, which has only worsened my anxiety regarding this.

Has anyone else here experienced this? Am I fucked? Any help is appreciated.

(Sorry if this post is a bit hard to read, I’m recovering from a fever and am kind of out of it)