Hi. I'm a little worried. A few weeks ago i took my first mushroom trip, and my second 4-5 days later. The real reason i'ce been curious about mushrooms is because of psilocybin and its therapeutic benefits. I struggle with OCD, insomnia and substance abuse (mostly alcohol). Generally the last 6 of my life have been kinda shit, and mushrooms was my last hope

I fucked up doing the first trip. I was in a shitty place that day and didn't care about anything, so i kept redosing until i ate around 10 grams. It wasn't a good trip

Second time i ate 2 grams. I had like a revilation. I need to get my shit together, appreciate the good things in life, do what i know will help me. But 2 days later it was back to normal

Anyways. Now my OCD and anxiety symptoms has been worsened, i'm always angry. This isn't the only factor. I quit antidepressants (a month ago) which has worsened my ocd and insomnia. But i have done that before, and i didn't remember it affected me that bad. I'm not sure what to think. During my second trip i definitely experienced why this can be a very good therapeutic tool, but it has been gotten worse since. Maybe i'm one of the people who can't 'handle' it. Like weed makes me extremly anxious and my ocd unbearble. Anyone (preferably somewhat experienced) has any thoughts or tip? I consider tripping again when i'm in a better place mentally but a little scared

Edit: Don't sell me anything...