Hello everyone. I started taking shrooms with a friend. Really he was a stranger who I took shrooms with. At first it was amazing but then I think we started to lose trust in each other. I had a final trip where we took some shrooms and smoked some weed. I had a horrific experience where time froze. I had since then taken them by myself to try to neural reset myself and refind myself but it led me to feel a red alert feeling that something wasn't right. It kinda feels like my inner voice has merged with his to some capacity. I assume that's quantum entanglement of some kind.

One thing led to another and I ended up in what they call phycosis and got thrown in a physch ward. PERSONALLY I would call it a spiritual awakening it's just western society are behind on alot of this. Intentionally behind? Intentionally blind to a higher power, most likely.

Anyway.... I want to find myself again. My true self before all this. I am wondering if I should full send take DMT when I feel comfortable in myself, in a good environment. I'm kinda aware that there's a chance it takes me to a worse place if I'm not careful it's just I want to be able to feel love again and I know a higher power, call it God or nature would care about me still.

Any advice or thoughts at all about this? Thankyou for reading