The rise was good. It wasn't anything unusual. They set in on the drive home (rather quickly) and I had to convince them not to kick in until I was off the freeway.

Won't be doing that again. Just wait until you get stationary at home.

Once I parked and got indoors, the mushrooms started really working their magic. I seen the geometric shapes and came to realize that the experience is true. I was blown away from the visual stimulation so much that I almost couldn't breathe. I'm panicking while trying to keep it cool, all the while I'm spooning my wife lol. Out of nowhere, I hear these two bangs. It sounds like someone took a bat and smacked the windshield of a car twice. Me and my wife both got up to look out the window, but didn't see anything.

What I can say next is me and my wife had sex, to which I felt as if I've made contact with her soul. It almost felt like her inner essence was there and I was with her. I lost all touch of my body. I couldn't feel a thing, but I could think and all I could think about was keeping focus and not losing control. She knows and is fine with the mushrooms too.

But then I became this bull.

I seriously felt like a bull, like a mature male cow. All thats missing are the horns. I don't want to diverge into the sex itself but I had to control myself more and more. And at some point I couldn't feel "him" and it just became a slapstick moment lol.

But here's the thing that stood out the most. I never ejaculated. I didn't reach orgasm. This was about 40 mins active. Never got there.

So then I backed off and had to really calm myself down cause I was steaming like a bull if you can imagine it. I turned on a cold shower. At this point, the mushrooms have become near its peak. I lay down on the floor with my eyes closed and then we go...

I first see a bunch of geometric shapes. Greens and blues and black squares and such. I cant really remember what else I seen then, but what happened next was eye opening.

I went into this kind of trance, where I heard this music that was on repeat. I called it 'the forever outro'. Couldn't remember it but man I tell you. The song was Grammy worthy. I literally cried. I figured that I've made it to the place where they say mushrooms take you to.

Once I got there I felt a sense of peace. It was warm and cozy. I could hear the music still and im seeing what I call 'the living room'. I could see a very warm light radiating off of an off white wall. It gave me the peace that I had when I was a kid. It reminded me of my grandma.

So I'm in this place called, 'the living room' and I could hear this looped melody I call 'the forever outro'. I'm enjoying the time there and laughing and crying silently to myself and I get this sense of "this is only the beginning" and I pretty much plunge into this array of deep blues and galaxy clusters. I feel myself yanked away from earth and tbh I can't remember from there lol.

My daughter started coughing and so I woke out of my trance. Since I was up, I decided it hop in the shower.

In the shower, i got this overwhelming feeling. I felt like i was some type of wolf. It felt like my face transformed into a great dane or something. Then, I literally came to the realization that I existed. It was literally like me discovering myself and discovering reality. It felt as if for the past 13 years, I've been on cruise control. I had extreme clarity. Like it was indescribable.

I realized that I was ok. I could get through a lot of the ailments I have in life right now. I realized that I was in the perfect position right that second to make the difference that I wanted to see. I came to realize that I can kick my weed habit and not feel like it's the end of the world. I got reassurance that the greater will was in play and it would take care of everything.

I then played 2k24 for ps5 and man was my vision fucked up lol I enjoyed it all, but man.

I seen a culmination of maggots that formed the players and the floor was moving and the walls were too and yeah, yall know the mushroom trip lol.

All I could think about is how the weight of the world was lifted and that I could make my way out of the dark. And the reason why it stood out to me the most that I didn't orgasm, is because I believe in the concept of a man's essence being in his semen. What I believe is my soul traveled down and met with hers, but made his way back up into my pineal gland and activated euphoria.