Ok, I'm by almost all means, a butt pro at this point. My largest toy is 9 inches, smallest is 7. And I have a normal little vibe deal. But for the life of me, I can't cum hands free.

Doesn't matter if I lay on my back, my side, if I do doggy. If I use the big stiff toy that has a larger curve and more surface area. Or the smaller straighter toy, better for my hands. The vibe makes me numb. and Idk if my prostate is right behind my dick, or if it's further in. Sometimes if you go in and curle down right away, i start to leak. Sometimes its the halfway point between the deepest portion, and the entrance. Can't relax because I have to move my arms. Tucking it has zero effect. Speed plays some role. I've definitely started to pant, and tesne up, and try and push the toy out. And it won't go out, which is hot. But I'm starting to lose my mind whenever I blue ball myself for a week and then the most I get is a few dribbles. Been doing this for a year and I hate it.

Getting "The Edge 2" soon since I have a long distance friend who might wanna control it. And maybe one of those wiggle motion vibes. But that's it tbh. Idk. I give up. Ik it's hard, but Jesus, this is stupid. Starting to lack moral. Is this normal? Have I broken my prostate?