A couple of nights ago, I arranged with my wife that I would go to bed and play a bit to "get myself started".

I hadn't cum for a couple of days and was excited about having her play with me back there.

I headed up to go to toilet, have a quick wash, then shoot 10-15ml lube inside. I coated my Aneros Eupho with vaseline, popped it in and headed to bed on a towel.

In our dark room, I concentrated on holding the Eupho by tensing my sphincter muscle, and then using my "stop yourself peeing" muscle to gently pull on the toy. I would hold it for several seconds with both sets of muscles tensed, before slowly releasing the stop peeing muscle - this kind of rubs the toy against my prostate.

After about 20mins of this, I started to feel a heat to my cheeks, gained and lost an erection several times, and then had a warm sense of joy spread out from my prostate. This waxed and waned several times over the next half hour as I continued the tense / release of the muscles and enjoyed involuntary twitches that moved the toy.

The sweet spot to aim for is where the muscles are in a tension balance against each other, and the gradual releasing of tension on the stop peeing muscle while continuing to grip the toy with my anal sphincter seems to trigger the involuntary twitches.

I think of it as gripping the toy in place with the anus, and then pulling at the toy to massage my prostate - either way, this theory works for me.

After an hour with the p waves not really building any more, I headed to the bathroom to remove the toy and freshen up.

I then headed to bed and text a code emoji to my wife who was watching tv. She then came up to use her dildo on me.

I laid on my front and scooted back up on my knees with pillows under my belly - my arse up in the air and then my wife sat directly behind me and put her legs over my lower legs.

The position made me feel exposed and vulnerable, which was a huge turn on when coupled with anticipation that I could send a signal and my wife would come to fuck me.

So she lubed up and gently slid in (approx 6 inches in length, and 1inch diameter). I had coached her earlier to point it towards my belly so that it rubs my prostate. I reminded her not to touch my cock at all and just to let it hang there.

Soon, I was moaning and feeling amazing. I would tip my hips up and down to encourage her to hit the right spots, and was quietly vocal about what was working well, and she was responding with slight adjustments.

Finally, after 10-12mins of bliss, I could feel a build up of pleasure throughout my whole bowel and into my belly. My cock was soft and I wasn't really aware of any feeling in it. I had her hold the dildo still as I rocked my hips and backed into it - moaning as I became aware that my wife was up close watching my fuck myself to heaven on a dildo. By tipping my hips back and forth as I fucked that beauty, I finally felt my whole pelvis erupt and a full wet orgasm squirted from my flacid cock. It literally pulsed through my whole body. The buzz stayed with me for the next 5mins as my wife held the dildo and gently stroked my cheeks.

I just felt like I had made myself so vulnerable, and yet was glowing with love. I wish everybody has the opportunity to feel such an experience at least once.

Communication is key. From vanilla to this over 2 years - just talk, and allow yourself to be vulnerable and exposed. It's so worth it.