Fair warning - this is mostly a rant while trying to seek some comfort and perspective from the internet.

I'm a Senior Product Manager at Amazon and have been here for a decade. I grew into the role while starting off as a project manager.

I recently got my rating and while I'm not at the bottom of the stack, I'm pretty bummed that I didn't get a better rating since it directly affects my compensation.

I'll be fair and say that I haven't worked the hardest and it doesn't help that I don't like the product I am on, however when I asked my manager why, I kept getting an answer that my engg team wasn't happy with the "lack of vision", while they have been very slow at adding features making the product almost useless.

I've also realised that due to my anxiety I'm afraid to ask the hard questions and avoid having those conversations until I absolutely have to, so I'm very slow to ramp up.

I've been going through a slump in general, got diagnosed with ADHD and depression in the last year and a half and this rating isn't helping my already fragile state.

I'm looking to the internet to see if anyone else went through a slump in their career and came out ahead?