Any tips to stop labelling yourself as a procrastinator? I swear I think it’s branded on my brain that it’s all I am. I have the worst impression of myself on this front.

Also I’m at a point with my uni work that I don’t want to really be here anymore. I’m pessimistic and numb I genuinely feel like I don’t care anymore about myself or my work. I’m not sure how to deal with this because sometimes I do feel some optimism and strength and then I ruin it. I feel so full of self hate.

I was coddled as a child for sure, always did what I was told and received praise for it but there wasn’t much push for ambition? I also get really triggered when someone tells me to just do it because it makes me feel misunderstood and self destructive. So I’m not sure what the right approach is, I try to hold boundaries with myself but that was also not really a thing in my childhood as my mum parentified me loads so I had to be there for her emotionally. I’m not sure if anyone will be able to make sense of this but

Edit: my mental health only gets really poor when I have something people expect me to do, especially academically. But I struggle with having a job or even learning to drive, I think it’s a perfectionist thing