I’m so fucking sad. My girl and I got into a big fight and I hate not being able to finish a conversation when we argue.

I’m really struggling with jealousy lately, and she’s so much more comfortable with the idea of me hooking up with others till we can be together. We used to both do that before she got locked up and I was happy and comfortable with it but now that she’s locked up it makes me sad because like, her only options are people she lives with. It hurts to imagine her doing anything with someone else when I just want us to be able to move in together and start a family and I can’t do that.

I don’t want her to feel restricted and honestly I know I’d be happy having the freedom too but I would rather just stay closed until we can be together in real life. I know it sounds kinda backwards but I don’t care if she fucks or even falls in love with someone else as long as I’m who she comes home to and we still love each other, which was what we did before she got locked up. But if we’re apart I can’t deal with the jealousy of her being with anyone else.

Also I totally get people who feel like a relationship can’t be serious unless it’s monogamous, but we were and are so serious about each other and always prioritized our relationship even when we were involved with others. I wish I could deal with the jealousy but I can’t for some reason.

Edit: for context we are lesbians. Not that it changes much.