Hello everyone! I’m currently 3 months out from the death and birth of my daughter, Mari, on June 22 at 39 1 weeks. Her death was a mix of a tight true knot (not completely tightened) and concealed placental abruption (which our MFM doctor brought up as a high possibility).

My DH and I were waiting 2 cycles, per our midwife, before we started TTC. Until now, I had been taking ovulation tests just so I could see if my cycles were regulating. But one night (during the second and last waiting cycle) was super steamy, we were distracting ourselves from the anxiety of our MFM preconception appointment the next day, I forgot about the positive ovulation test, and Mari apparently wanted a sibling in her birth month.

I tested positive on Sunday at 11dpo and wow, are the mix of emotions so real. We weren’t expecting to get pregnant this early on in our TTC journey. My brain is trying to forget that I’m pregnant even though it’s also very excited. I’m grateful that I have a team behind me that will monitor me closely as this pregnancy hopefully progresses, but waiting another 4 weeks before I can see my midwife and get an ultrasound is torture.