God, why do you continue to let me reside in this pain, this grief. My wife of 2 decades that you gave me has fallen in love with a married man and I am devastated and I’m broken. I am in such a difficult and dark place these past few months and I reach out to you, you see me cry, you see me fall and have such trouble getting back to my feet.

I know I failed at times as both a husband and as a father and if your punishment to me for not being what I should have been is taking my family from me, then I have no recourse, no say in the matter and I must accept my future.

If you are there though, if you are able to see my heart breaking, please bring me peace. I beg you to soften the heart of My wife, please let her see me the way she used to; I so broken and need to feel your hands upon my shoulders.