I lost faith a very long time ago. But. In recent events for the past 2 years I barely survived my mental health of how fast my life crumbled before me. We have no money. Live in a basement and I been battling comp who took my career job away. But amongst the darkness and the constant pain. I been slowly losing faith on being a father. Everyone else being blessed while I'm just numb and breaking there is too much to dive in but let's just say the only family I have now is my wife. My brother's and I have been distant because our mother drove us apart. An she abandoned me when I got initially injured on the job. Which of course happened a week to us being married. So 2 years of pain sadness and my wife watching me fade from myself. I've climbed out of most of it and I'm trying to take my life back. But I'm mentally damaged I at heart know I am. But I sit here asking for a prayer on becoming a father. That this round may be the one. I know prayers don't deal in absolutes. But in your hearts feel my pain. Feel my turmoil and I guess I ask for your heart felt prayers on reaching that blissful moment. I am okay with it maybe not coming to fruition. But who knows. Maybe me believing again may bless us with a child. Much love. Hope everyone has a great Easter.