Hi, my name is Ty I'm athletic, goofy, and a band student well . Was (gay black 18M) fresh out of highschool, a college freshmen going for his bachelor's in nursing. I don't do drugs or drinks I tried them but I don't get a buzz so I don't do them at all. I was diagnosed with HIV today the way I got it was my 2nd time having sex way in august with a random guy near the college I was going to meet with and I remember his face house car and occupation. If I remember correctly I always had my wits about me ik everything there was about HIV how to contract different methods but that fateful day is the day I knew I messed up... He (black male 35) picked me up around night and me being the playful guy I am I was very nervous and didn't know how to speak out for myself even to this day we got to his I tried sparking conversation to calm myself but it wasn't working so as we began doing the deed now I'm not that experienced at sex but he shoved it in dry and I tried to push against him but he had me in a difficult position and at that fateful moment ik I could have stopped it and I was scared and a part of me knew I should've not gone through with it if I was just gonna be scared in the first place and even til today I'll never know what was going through my head. Fast forward to the end or near the end he was in and it was very painful and young me didn't know what I or he was doing wrong but it was very painful by the time it was over I went to his bathroom and I didn't know if he cummed in me or not but now ik. I went to the bathroom to push his DNA out wiped my butt and realized I had poop juice on my leg he was laughing while I was confused me stupidly asked how I did and he said good with a laugh I now hate to this day he dropped me off back on campus I had to go to the bathroom and then it happened and ik what was to come next I wiped my tail and saw a humongous streak of blood I tried going to the hospital to get checked out but it was too late at night and idk what to do I tried to explain to them my situation and the best he could do was tell me to be careful and sent me on my way with pain meds. A friend was with me I dropped down crying yelling at her not to touch me because ok then that I made the worst mistake of my life. I drove back toy home town Texarkana at 3 in the morning we went to her mom's house my family knows I'm gay I told them but they ignore it and believe I'm straight the next morning we went to CVS get a home hig kit test and tried to use it while his remnants where still fresh on me but after researching when's the soonest HIV results could be detected I felt vulnerable as I looked at the test it came up negative I broke down crying my friend hugged and comforted me and said it's gonna be ok but she didn't know that how useless those results where. After showering and her helping me fix myself we headed back to campus